Struggles....

One last blog before I go to bed. This one is about some struggles of mine. The first is remembering. I cant remember things like I use to. Partly cause I'm so tired and partly cause I'm busy with the kids. It's gotten me into trouble cause I've forgotten to pay bills a couple of times! But because of the memory problem, I'm forgetting to update the family list, make picture cd's and send them out, and specially do my sons birth announcements! Sad I know! I'm busy! But this is the least of my struggles. The next two are probably equally hard!

Finances and weight. I struggle with my weight because of a couple of reasons. One being I'm tired. So tired that trying to get up and walk is hard for me. All I want to do is sleep. Sleep lots! I am walking most nights now with Lee and hoping to start walking in the mornings with the kids. But its definitely hard! But I really need to lose the weight. My other problem is I dont know how to eat healthy. I can't cook healthy and when I'm in a munchy mood, my first instinct is to go to the junk food. Popcorn, chips, candy, pop. Now I only drink pop when I go out to eat. And we are trying to eat better but its so hard! I didnt realize how hard! But its a huge struggle for me. One that I'm terrified will win over me. I want to lose weight so badly but I feel stupid in how I go about doing that! Sometimes I wish I could snap my fingers and be done with it! I'm trying to learn and trying to push through but most days, I lose. Hopefully I will figure this out soon!

Finances are a struggle for both Jake and I. We do really well with out money and then something hits us and we have a hard time playing catch up the next several months. Doesnt help that I have medical bills now from Josiah's birth as well as my new dr. There's things we would like to purchase, and things we need to purchase but cant. And just when we think we are finally on top of the credit cards, somethings happens and once again, we are trying to pay them down! Too bad I couldnt win the lottery! I could definitely pay somethings off! I know it will happen for us. Someday. We will figure this out and we will get control of our finances. It's just frustrating to once again figure out how to best budget our money and spend it wisely! Lord help us! Lord help me!