Today, someone posted something that they were excited about. Something I didn't agree with. I use to comment on those things, nicely, explaining why I disagreed but now I sit quietly. Why? Well, that's a good question. Warning, this is going to be long.
I called hubby today to to vent to him about said thing because I couldn't believe that Christians were happy about it! To me, it's blatantly obvious that its against the bible so we shouldn't be for it. But that's a whole other debate for another blog. Anyways, in venting to hubby, he asked me why I didn't say something about it. Why I didn't post bible verses backing up my beliefs or why what they were believing was not biblical. I told him that I was tired of feeling like I didn't have an opinion.
I have no voice any longer and I am not sure how I let them take it away. But I did. I think I got tired of feeling beat up, bullied, of being called names, of being told I'm unloving and intolerable. I felt like that no matter how nice or loving I was, they were going to say bad things about me. And sometimes it got really bad and mean! And these are friends! They aren't strangers! I ended up having to delete a friend because they would not listen to what I was typing, kept calling me names, and pretty much was not playing fair. I got tired of it. Now I post things a lot, but I don't usually post my thoughts on it. I just post it.
I feel like Christians and non Christians a like are saying 'yes you are entitled to your opinion unless you disagree with me and then you're not'. Essentially that's how I have been treated. Why is it that you're aloud to disagree with me but I am not aloud to disagree with you? Why can you believe what you believe, right or wrong, but I am not? How come you're so loving and tolerable but I am not? Regardless of that fact that usually, I am loving and tolerable but you aren't? Its annoying, it hurts, and frankly I am tired of feeling like I am not aloud to think for myself. That I have to follow the masses. Gay pride! Abort the baby-its your body! No vaccines! Rear face till 5! Starbucks coffee, David Crowder band, Fords, all fords, and down with Toby Mac! He sucks and is so full of himself! Just to name a few! Apparently, when I go against the flow, I am a horrible person who doens't know God, how to love, anything good, and I am so intolerable its not even funny. Seriously, that's how I feel! Thats how I am treated! And frankly, its not fair! Yes I know life isn't fair, but I figured my friends would be ok with me having an opinion of my own. Even if I didn't agree with them! But so far, that's not happening. I've been called simple things like silly or dork for my believes to hateful, racist, and other bad words I wont mention. Well, call me any name you want. I am laying it out there! All in one place! Well, at least the ones I mentioned since I remembered those!
I believe everyone has a choice on how they choose to live. I wish I did a better job of living like Jesus but I don't and I know that. I am working on it bits by bits. But there are a few things that while you have a choice on, I can't not and will not agree with unless God himself comes down to me and tells me to my face that I am on the wrong side. I do not agree with gay marriage. I believe that marriage is suppose to be between a man and a woman and that God doesn't agree with Gay marriage. It's all throughout the bible. I could get verses if you'd like...just ask. I also believe that if you choose to live that lifestyle, I am not going to stand in your way. I'm not going to call you a horrible person or tell you you are going to hell. I will tell you I don't agree but its your choice! So have at it!
I believe that having a baby, whether planned or not, is actually a consequence. For me it was a planned consequence. Why do I say that? Well you have to do something in order to have a baby. You have to have sex. And if your body is ready, you will get pregnant. You have to do something first though. It doesn't just happen. So why are you allowed to sleep around and get rid of your consequence? How is that right? Specially when it is a life? You can't cut and STD out. You have to live with it for the rest of your life. So why can you choose to get rid of a baby because you couldn't keep your legs closed? How is it the babies fault that you slept with so and so? Well because you took the chocolate I offered you, I am now going to chop you're arm off. Extreme? Yeah maybe but its how I feel.
I vaccinate. I can't understand why people don't. Why would you risk you're child's life because they may or may not have something bad to them? To me, the risks from the vaccines far outweigh the risks of not. I follow the recommended schedule. I trust my dr and I trust he is not forcing me to vaccinate so that he can make and extra buck or two. I trust he knows what he is doing and doesn't have an ulterior motive! And I trust that my children are better for it. But again that's me!
I rear face till a year! GASP! I know, I'm killing my child, my excuses are lame, and wouldn't I rather a screaming live baby then a happy dead one?? Yeah I've actually been asked that. I personally have done the research, my hubby and I talked about it, and to be honest, we felt this was a good decision for our family. I am not asking you to follow me. I don't even care what you do as long as you follow the law! Which, in WA state, its 1 year and 20lbs. If it changes, I will follow it. I wont like it but I will follow it. Chloe we turned because we could, Josiah was not a happy baby and I promise you the risk of me getting into an accident because of him constantly screaming in the car was MUCH higher then if he was forward facing and happy. We turned him at a year. And soon, Evie will hit a year and we will turn her also. She'll be happier to see mama anyways!
Now on to the silly things. No I do not like Starbucks coffee. I think its gross. I LOVE LOVE LOVE dutch bros coffee!! YUM!!!! I am not a fan of fords, no thank you! And I am not a fan of David Crowder band. The band. Not the person. His new stuff is actually good and I like it! I love Toby Mac! Love him! I think his last concert I went to was awesome and Jake and I truly enjoyed ourselves. I hope to see him again one day!
Why can't we live in a world where you believe what you believe, I believe what I believe, and we just get along?? I know there are certain people I do not talk about certain things! Toby Mac, Gay, coffee. Some people really get defensive if I say good/bad things about things they like/dont like and its usually the times I get called names or feel like I shouldn't like said things. I hide because I am tired of being told I am wrong to believe the way I do. Whether I am or not, doesn't give you the permission to tear me down and make me feel like an idiot because of the way I believe! Its getting tiresome! Get over it! Not everyone thinks like you do! I'm friends with you for a reason! And it wasn't because you believed/liked everything I believed/like! Its because you are a person with differences and similarities who happens to like me and want to hang out! So could we stop with the name calling and the making me feel horrible for the way I believe? Maybe actually BE TOLERABLE and LOVING?? Cause I just want to feel like we are both in this relationship and that its not one sided. And that you truly do love me for me, differences and similarities included!
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