When I was pregnant with Chloe, the anticipation of meeting her was almost overwhelming. I couldn't wait to hold her and love on her and see what kind of baby she would be. Who she would look like, what would she grow into. Things like that. With Josiah, I had all those feelings too but was more apprehensive because I was afraid of loving him more then Chloe or less then Chloe. I was afraid that I would no longer have time for Chloe or be able to have a bond with Josiah. I mean, how do you split your attention with 2 kids! It's impossible right?? No actually its not. We made it work and I love both my kids equally! They are completely different in personality and looks, and both my babies. I bonded well with both of them.
This time I do not have those apprehensions. I am excited to meet this baby and hold this baby and finally know what this baby will be. I can't wait to have a shower and start buying things for baby! But I am more looking forward to this baby's siblings reactions. Chloe first off, is sure its a girl. So when baby is born and its a boy, will she be disappointed or just as happy. Will she still want to room with the baby or change her mind? If its a girl, will mom get to actually hold baby or is Chloe going to hog her :P Will Chloe mother her and teach her all the things she has learned or will she push her away unahappy to have a sister? Right now, Chloe is super excited about sharing a room with the baby and can't wait for the baby to come! She constantly asks about the baby and talks about the baby and says what the baby is doing right now. But how will she act when baby is actually here?? Love the baby or grow to resent the baby?
Josiah could care less at the moment. Anytime I ask him to touch my belly he pushes and bounces and hurts. And when I say be gentle cause of baby, he usually ignores me. I have seen him with our friends babies and he is actually really good with them and quite gentle. But those babies go home or dont come home with us. So how will he react? Will be like baby? Will he be gentle to baby and love on baby like he did with our friends babies or will he be vicious? Will he try to hurt baby? Will he be helpful at all or constantly fighting me? Will he love baby and play with baby? Or will he completely ignore baby?
Will they be friends with the baby or ignore baby? I know these are things I shouldn't worry about but I do. I mean, I am sure most mothers have thought of this. How will the old siblings like new baby? Will they get along or will they resent the new baby? Will they be helpful or more in the way? I know it will all work out for the best and I am sure they will love the new baby but as we come closer to the day this baby is born, these are the questions that come to my mind. I am curious to see how they interact and I am curious to see what kind of people all 3 of them turn out to be. I hope they will be best friends and grow to stay that way as adults! I know things will work out. I can't wait for Chloe to be a big sister again and for Josiah to be a big brother. I see how they treat each other and take care of each other and I am excited to see them treat new baby, hopefully, just the same! With love.
Hurry baby, your family is waiting for you and can't wait to meet you!! Hopefully our dr agrees to July 19th!!
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