What's your calling??

So, I have heard a lot of people talk about how they feel 'called' to do something with their life. Whether its to lead worship, be a pastor, an engineer, a mother, a teacher. Whatever it is, I hear it a lot. God calls people all the time letting them know what is it God wants them to do. I have yet to discover this.

Last year, I think around this time of year actually, I went to women's retreat with my New Life family. It was an awesome retreat but it was there that I discovered that I am not sure that I know my calling or my spiritual gifts. I have always wanted to be a stay at home mom but is that my calling or am I meant to do something more? I love worship music and would love to lead worship some day, but is that my calling? Or does God want me to do something else?? I had a pastor's wife tell me that she felt I was called to do prophetic singing, which I didn't feel the same way. And I had someone tell me when I was younger that I was to do intercessory prayer. Again, I wasn't feeling this calling. It got me thinking about what I was called to do. What were my spiritual gifts. I was hoping to find out. But then life got busy with moving and a 3rd baby.

This last Saturday, I went to coffee with a gal from my church who is one of the worship leaders. It was interesting because I was actually headed to talk to the Pastor who was currently in a conversation so instead I stopped Sam who was near our pastor and told her that I would love to pick her brain sometime about worship leading! I want to do what she does! Someday maybe. Anyways, we exchanged numbers and I will be honest, I thought that was it, for awhile anyways. But nope, she sent me a text a couple days later and we set up to meet this last Saturday. It was fun! I loved hanging out with another gal and even better, a gal doing what I love the most, and being truly vulnerable with me. It was nice! Anyways, back to the point. She mentioned how she felt God was calling her to do worship ministry. And some other things. And her speaking about once again reminded me that I am still in search of my 'calling'. What are my spiritual gifts? Am I called to do something that goes hand in hand with my spiritual gifts? Have I not yet learned what I should be doing or have I been so caught up in my life that I have completely missed it? How do I find out? I'm still trying to get in a regular habit of reading my bible and writing in my journal!  I know the times God has talked to me in my life. Evie was one of those times and moving to Vancouver, just to name a few. But maybe God has already told me calling and I completely missed it?? How do I start on this journey to truly know what it is God wants me to do with my life?? And when I do figure it out, how do I completely jump in with both feet?? Oh the journey that I am about to start!