So today Im 37 weeks pregnant. Im not sure if most of you remember where I was this time last year. I thought I would take the time to reflect on this past year. July 7th, 2008, I was at my mom's house waiting anxiously with my hubby, mom, and grandma to find out whether or not I was pregnant. The test said to wait one minute I think but Jake waited like 30 secs and then went to "check" on it. It said pregnant. I said wait till its done and he pointed out that 30 more secs wasnt going to make a difference. I was pregnant. I couldnt believe it! We didnt plan for this one at all! But boy was I excited! As I ran to my mother to tell her I burst into tears with excitement that finally, my turn was here. That I was going to be a mom!! My mom held me and cried with me and even my grandma shed a few tears! Everyone was so happy. I've wanted this for so long and now it was happening! Jake was happy too. No he didnt cry.
I went to the dr the next day and had it confirmed. I was due March 13th. Yeah! Pregnant during winter months, not too bad. I get to wear cute prego clothes and boy was I excited! Everything was going ok for the most part. I was hungry all the time and I was tired and realizing that I wasnt full of energy like normal. I had my first appt Aug 19th and couldnt wait to hear the heartbeat and see the first pics of our baby. Aug 10th, however, I started spotting and cramping. Dr told me to rest and that if I was going to miscarry that there was nothing they could do. So we prayed every night for our little one and I rested during the day. I had a fall down the stairs at one point and the spotting got worse as well as the cramping. On Aug 17th, 2008, I went to the ER and miscarried my baby in the hospital. I actually caught and held my little one as I handed it to the nurse to have my worse fears confirmed. I cried, alot. But mostly that day. My mom drove down and held me and cried with me and spent the night with us. My sister and best friend came over the next day to make sure I was ok. The next couple of months, I had my good days and my bad days. It was hard to lose my baby but God has also kinda been preparing me for it. So I didnt act the way most people around had acted when they miscarried. I kept my appt with my dr and he confirmed the miscarry, made sure I was doing ok, explained that once my body regulated I could try again, and to take the time to grieve and take care of myself. When I heard I could try again, I did! I was not going to let this stop me from becoming a mom.
3 months later, one week before Thanksgiving 08, we found out once again we were pregnant! And this time I knew it would stick! I wasnt losing this baby. We prayed every night for the baby to make sure it was healthy and nothing bad would happen. We had a lot of changes through the pregnancy. We bought a house, had to move and unpack which was interesting while pregnant. We found out we having a girl and was excited! We watched the changes my body was making. I was nauseous at night till about 4 months and then I could eat real food! Of course with eating meant I was putting weight on too. It was so exciting all the changes that were happening!
Now here are, a year later, in less then 3 weeks, I will have a baby girl. A healthy baby girl. One who has been prayed for since the day we found out we were pregnant. And not just by us but by her grandma and her second church home. Today she is kicking up a storm! Sometimes they hurt but every time I feel them it makes me happy. At night I will shake my belly just so I can feel her moving and know that she is doing ok. I know that Chloe will be a healthy baby girl. However, because I had a miscarriage, I still have times where I worry that something bad will happen to her. That every thing will not be ok. But I trust in God and I know God never gives us more then we can handle and I know my baby girl is good! It helps that Jake told me the same thing just the other day. He's such a great hubby and has been by my side through the good and the bad pregnancy. I cant wait till she is here. Till I can hold her in my arms and kiss all over her! My mom is totally ready as well and even Jake is. He told me last night that he's over me being pregnant. He just wants Chloe to be here. He's excited to meet her and I think he will make a great dad so I cant wait! I never expected to be here in the position waiting for the day my daughter would arrive! So exciting!!
Now that thats been said, I do want to let every one know that I have no problem with people visiting us. While we are in the hospital, come on by! No problem. But once we are home, we have decided to take the first week home to just be us. No visitors, go no where *cept for dr visits* and do nothing for the first week. Then we dont mind having visitors over. Just please, call first before you come. Just to make sure we are ready and awake and up for it! thanks!! Soon she will be here!! I cant wait!!
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