God has a plan....

So, I think I have become something I said I would not. I have heard/read countless stories about women who tried and tried to get pregnant and then stressed about it and then stopped trying and finally got pregnant. I realized I was becoming this woman. I was trying to take things into my own hands and make it happen when I wanted it. I will still be sad when I get a negative test instead of positive test. But I know God has a plan for our life. He knows what we can and cant handle. He knows when its best for us to have a child. Whether thats now or later. No Im not giving up, Im just leaving it in Gods hands and hoping that this will be it. I cant change what happened, I cant change how I reacted, but I can trust in God now and know what happens is his will for me. What he has planned. I need to trust in him. He knows the desire of my heart and knows when I will be a mom. Right now, Im to live my life to the fullest, loving and praising him for all things good and bad. Im not 100% there but getting there. Im learning, just like everyone else!